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[tothosewhobait]

[Answers on the first ring, voice even but curiosity and worry are evident despite trying to keep his tone even]

Hello, treasure… So you want to wait to tell me when you get here or do you wish to start talking now? At the very least I would like to know if you are all right.

[unpaidovertime]

[That greeting sends a warm feeling all over him, but sadly, it's not the time for that.]

I am fine. And Envy is... hopefully fine. We didn't hurt each other, but he has been crying. I may have miscalculated something between us and I had no idea I was making everything worse.

[tothosewhobait]

…

[Cradles the phone between his shoulder and his ear as he cleans up what he was working on. Wanting to give Nanami his full attention when he arrives.]

You two were talking? Where did you run into each other?

[unpaidovertime]

I went to his hotel room, to see him. I had a gift for him as an apology, and that went well. But... he feels rejected by me.

And he may have broken something after I left.

[tothosewhobait]

…thank you for that. It means a lot that you were trying to apologize. Not that I am suggesting it was for me, but… Nonetheless, I am happy to hear that part.

Why…did he feel rejected by you though? What happened?

[unpaidovertime]

I did feel like I had wronged him, and it's only right to apologize. I might have avoided it longer if not for you, but it needed to be done regardless.

He wants to date me. I wasn't expecting it, and when he told me I was surprised. I think the fact that I didn't immediately agree may have done more harm than I thought. But I couldn't just... I haven't even considered him that way.

[tothosewhobait]

Mmmm…I think both of you are not used to how the other communicates. So it is easy to accidentally step on each other’s buttons. Afterall, you two are similar in some ways, but quite different in others…

[unpaidovertime]

[Knocking when he gets to the office and then letting himself in immediately anyway. He cuts off the call when they're face to face.]

I didn't think he was at all interested in me. Why would he be? I've hurt him so badly.

[tothosewhobait]

[Crosses the room, reaching up to pull Nanami into a hug]

I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again, you are quite attractive. A real heartbreaker.

[unpaidovertime]

[The hug takes him a bit by surprise but he's grateful all the same.]

Is he attracted to me? I had no idea. I hurt him without noticing that...

[tothosewhobait]

I can’t say I knew either, but I also don’t know how anyone could not be attracted to you.

Perhaps we should have you both start over? Forget everything you thought you knew about each other and go in with completely open minds. You can both have a second chance at first impressions if you sincerely want to.

[unpaidovertime]

I was hoping to clear things somewhat. And I told him I would take the time to consider what he wanted, but that was also the wrong answer. I thought we made some progress, but he was upset when I left. I didn't want to trespass in your bedroom.

[tothosewhobait]

Ah…? Why not? I wouldn’t have minded.

[unpaidovertime]

Every inch of his room was full of you. I don't belong there, and you do. Being in your bedroom would have felt like I was violating your personal space. For both of you.

[tothosewhobait]

Neither of us would invite you if you were not welcome. Consider this an invitation from myself as well.

I don’t know about every inch, but…if it was too full of me, then we will add some of you to balance it out. We can shop for pillows you like or a throw and bring over some of your things.

[unpaidovertime]

It felt like I was intruding somewhere I didn't belong. It so clearly isn't my space.

... Is that offensive? He took it so badly.

[tothosewhobait]

I...don't think it's offensive. It could feel like a rejection though. And he's the sort of person who is ready to be rejected.

And of course it won't seem like your space at first. It didn't seem like my space either in the beginning, but I jumped in and changed it to include me. It sounds like he and I are both willing to make room for you to make it your space too. You just have to be willing to jump in and start adjusting too.

It seems like he isn't the only one who is ready to be rejected.

[Releases Nanami from the hug, opting to take his hand instead and leading him to the couch in his office. If Nanami is as observant as ever, he may notice Azul's tie color today is not his usual purple, but instead a shade of yellow.]

[unpaidovertime]

He is especially ready to be rejected by me. But I couldn't just accept a relationship with him without giving it some thought. So far he's seen me act impulsively more than just about anyone, but hopefully he can understand that I don't normally jump into things without due consideration.

... I can see about finding something to make it feel more mine, but I do think my issue was more with it feeling like something I'm not meant to see. Your private lives, that I've stomped into and ruined.

[As always he will go wherever Azul takes him. And he does get a chance to look him over now that they're settled again.]

You look nice today.

[tothosewhobait]

Well. Do you want to try a date with him? I could either be there or not be there....whichever would be more helpful for you both.

And you didn't stomp into and ruin anything. I pursued you just as you pursued me, even if you seem to insist that I do not want you as much as you want me. You could stay over one night, just to see... Or we could stay in my room, since that's neutral ground. Neither of you has stayed in my room, so neither of you has anything there. We could all try staying in my room.

[Has a seat next to him, reaching out to take Nanami's hands]

You look very handsome today too, but you always look handsome.

[unpaidovertime]

I don't know. I hadn't thought of him that way so far, and a forced date could sour things between us even further. Even though I would like to get to know him better. He and Greed are similar in some respects, and they both deny how human they are. I should like to know the person he is, under all of the armor he puts up.

I don't know if having you with us would make things better or worse. I'm so over my head on this, I don't even know who to talk to for help. Still, I would be willing to try sharing a bed with both of you at some point. But every time I push it off to the future, I make now a little worse.

[Staring down at where Azul is holding him.]

I hope I look better than I did when you had to preen my wings for me.

[tothosewhobait]

I wish I was better able to give advise, but...this is so far beyond my little experience as well.

If you wish to try...it's just sleeping. I only sleep four hours a night, so if you decided you couldn't do it and got up when I did...it would basically just be as though you were going to work. He does not know what your schedule is like. If you wanted to try, but were worried about it going poorly, you would have an out at least.

[Brushes his thumbs over Nanami's knuckles]

I am glad to see you looking a little healthier. I was worried about you. I still am.

[unpaidovertime]

That might work out. I'm not sure what hours you keep in general, I tend to be up late at night still. So long as I'm not going to be upsetting your plans.

[He seems sensitive to that still, that his time and presence is in the way of other things. He would probably say 'better things' but he's wisely keeping that to himself.]

I'm sorry to have troubled you before. But why are you still worried?

[tothosewhobait]

I usually sleep between midnight and four...if that works for you.

[Can practically feel that mental pause, sir]

Why am I still worried...? Because I care about you, of course. And it is obvious you are still upset.

[unpaidovertime]

I may not sleep much, but I can try.

[Stiffening a little. He had been starting to relax and the idea that he's still so visibly upset puts him back on alert.]

What makes you say that I'm still upset?

[tothosewhobait]

Most of the clues are subtle....whether it's hesitation in your words or touches....a tightening of your expression....a little tiredness around the eyes....your body language going stiffer... Things like that. I wouldn't notice if I wasn't looking for them though.

You did it just now even.