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[tothosewhobait]

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[Nods in thanks to Velvet before he reaches out to carefully pet along Envy's back with a fingertip]

What happened? Are you injured? Let's get you inside, you'll feel more comfortable inside, right?

[infinitecruelty]

[Looks back at him, that big ol' eye full of one big tear.]

....Y-yeah. Please.

[He sounds so tiny and pathetic and he knows it, and he's not sure if he's more afraid of being seen or judged right now, but... it's nice to know that neither of these two (apparently??) do judge him right now. Velvet didn't make fun of him even once, and Azul is showing concern in a similar way.

Maybe it doesn't completely suck to have people that care about you.]

...I, um. ...Thanks again, Velvet. I'm gonna take it from here. Remind me of that stuff later, okay?

[outrageon]

[moving her hands to make it easier for Azul to take Envy—]

Sure thing.

[She doesn't mention the phone, which is still hidden in her hair.]

Night, boys.

[And with a wink, she leaves them to their business.]

[tothosewhobait]

[Carefully taking Envy in his hands before bringing him close to rest against his chest while Azul closes the door. Once the door is closed, he walks them over to their bed, keeping Envy nestled against his chest and held securely in both hands.]

You didn't answer... Are you injured? I can do a little healing magic... It's hardly my specialty though...

[infinitecruelty]

[Why does he want to cry already? This is so fucking embarrassing. He can't believe Azul is being so chill about this? He's literally a worm! A giant, parasitic worm! And Azul is just holding him like a newborn kitten! ]

...I'm not injured. I mean-- I don't think it's something you can heal me for. Unless you've got a few souls in a bottle somewhere, I don't think I can do anything but let my stone replenish its power.

[Ugh, he hates hearing himself talk like this, and being so small and this close to Azul's neck makes him sound so deep and smooth it's almost disgusting. How can he even think about that kind of thing while he's suffering!!]

Thanks, anyway.

[tothosewhobait]

....want me to kill some guys and take their souls? That is a thing I could probably do.

[Climbs into bed, being careful not to jostle Envy too much]

[infinitecruelty]

[Once they're settled, he looks up at him intently for a moment, like... is he serious?]

...Would you do that, for me?

[tothosewhobait]

It wouldn't be the worst thing I've done.

[Taking one of those little arms between his thumb and forefinger, carefully brushing his thumb over it]

Now...do you want to tell me what happened exactly? Now that I know you're not injured at least.

[infinitecruelty]

...Well, obviously I want to hear that story.

[Hhhh his fingers are so big now, this is so weird. Everything about him is so big! And how disgusting that his eyes are even bigger and bluer and he doesn't have a single flaw on his face it's insane. Listen, he doesn't usually... get so close to people like this. Not unless he's been intent on latching on, at least.

He lets his little hands get played with, but tries to avert his gaze from Azul's face regardless.]

...I was snooping, made a few miscalculations... and got caught. [How badly he wants to throw that bastard under the bus right off the bat, but. Something is holding him back.]

[tothosewhobait]

[Drops a kiss to the top of Envy's head, humming in question]

You're being vague.

[infinitecruelty]

[Did he really just-- oh. That's. Never happened before. In all of his years.]

...Hh. Your little bodyguard caught me snooping at The Nest. I didn't realize I was in his office. He got mad.

[tothosewhobait]

...

[Please hold, pausing the gentle brushing of his thumb over that hand as he tries to wrap his mind around Nanami doing this to someone over a little snooping]

...

...

...Nanami did this? How did he even...do this?

[infinitecruelty]

He killed me. Three times. Looks like I can't take as much of a beating as I used to after the Pipsqueak sent me through the Door.

[Rubbing at his face and flopping over with a whine.]

...Remember when I said I had to get really hurt to show you my "real" self? Well. Here you go.

[Lazily raises the half of his limbs that aren't touching the ground.]

Voila. [Flops them back down with a sigh.]

[tothosewhobait]

[Pipsqueak? Door? Nanami killing someone THREE TIMES over snooping? Azul's face crinkles up a bit in confusion as he tries to parse all that]

I'm....sorry you died. That must have been painful. Even if you came back...still.

[Frowns more, one part in all this standing out....but not wanting to press quite yet. Runs a gentle hand over Envy's back, petting him once more while he thinks.]

[infinitecruelty]

It was painful! First he stabbed me in my back and then he stabbed me in my head and then he punched me in my head, and then he stabbed me in my head again! So-- it was FOUR times!

[Whines, whimpers.]

He's a fucking psychopath. All I wanted to do was get those pictures for you and leave!

[tothosewhobait]

[Considering he has SEEN what a punch from Nanami can do, that is perhaps the most concerning one of all. And this all gets a sharp intake of breath from Azul. He can't help but think that surely? Surely??? There is something more to this. All over snooping and some photos....there's no way. He doesn't want to make excuses or drill Envy though...but his mind is reeling a bit]

[infinitecruelty]

[Azul is being too quiet. He knows where this is going, doesn't he.

The creature closes its eyes for a moment, charting the best course for this conversation he can. He could be mean, he could be hurt, demanding an answer, yelling at the top of his lungs at him for being the reason he's stuck like this... but outside of the fact it wouldn't be very serious coming from a worm, he's really just too exhausted. He's died too many times and isn't regenerating as fast as he's used to, and can't put that much energy into it right now. He's one good stomp away from dust, okay.

So, Azul will get the tiniest, quietest questioning.]

...Why didn't you tell me about him? ...Or him about me?

[tothosewhobait]

[...oh. So this is at least in part his fault... His shoulders slump a bit as that sets in. He sets Envy on his lap, still as careful as ever.]

I suppose...I didn't think either of you were that serious about me? Why would you be? That is... Mmm... I suppose the reason doesn't really matter, does it? At the end of the day, I didn't and I should have.... I'm sorry for that. And I'm sorry for this. I never meant to hurt you, honestly.

[infinitecruelty]

[He doesn't want to say that he's "that serious" about him, because that would imply that he has feelings and he can't have feelings. Not like those! He never has before! That can't be right! People do stupid things for those feelings, they make illogical choices, they sacrifice themselves for--

Oh...

Envy very much risked his life to prove that he had something with Azul and did ultimately die for it, even if it wasn't permanent. ...So maybe he does have feelings? Fuck, what a time to figure that one out.

Shit.]

...I took a letter opener to the face because I told him about us. I'd say it's "that serious."

[tothosewhobait]

[Curls over a bit, seeming to deflate. Azul suddenly seems much smaller and much younger than he usually does, all of the usual smugness or showmanship having seemingly left for now.]

I...may have miscalculated...

[infinitecruelty]

[...it's hard to be mad. He wants to be mad. He wants so bad to be mad.]

...Miscalculated what?

[tothosewhobait]

How much you both like me. Because…it’s not just him, right? You wouldn’t have stayed through all that otherwise. That is… You wouldn’t be here talking to me now if you felt lukewarm about me….right?

[infinitecruelty]

Oh, yeah. We're both real lukewarm. He's willing to kill me for you, and I'm willing to die for you.

Sooo fucking tepid. [He deflates more, not wanting to be even kind of on the same level as that asshole. But no, Nanami's going to end up getting praised for ending him and he's just going to get pitied for being so fucking weak. Weak enough to let that bastard destroy him over and over and over, and still let him live. Weak enough to do it just like that, because Greed would end him, and now, apparently, Azul loves him, too.

Great, just fucking wonderful.]

I just figured I'd let you know, because he's going to tell you. Good luck, I guess.

[tothosewhobait]

…do you think you can forgive me? I know that’s an unfair thing to ask when you’re hurting. I need to know though if I still have a chance.

[infinitecruelty]

...Are you going to forgive him for doing this to me?