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[tothosewhobait]

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[infinitecruelty]

...

[It's nice to be pet, really, but it's kind of hard to enjoy this moment when he's looking like that.]

...he tried to kill me cos of how much he... Yeah. [Grumble.]

I don't think you're "nothing" to him... Not that I'm trying to help the asshole out or anything.

[tothosewhobait]

....how much he....?

[infinitecruelty]

[Grumbles.]

Don't make me say it. I don't-- want him to. I don't want him around. I don't want him to have you. I don't want you to choose him over me.

[His big stupid eyes well up with tears almost immediately and he turns his head away to let them fall and soak into the pillowcase. He definitely sounds like he's whining, petulant and sad.]

I wanted you, first. I wanted you enough to sign stupid papers that meant we'd be stuck here together until one of us cracked or disappeared!

[He doesn't know if that's even true. He has no idea how long this thing with Nanami has been going on. He doesn't know if he's actually the afterthought, here. Even after everything they've done together and how much time they spend together, he has no idea where any of Azul's hearts lie and how long they've belonged to someone else. He didn't want to think about it, so he didn't. He pretended everything was theirs and theirs alone.]

It's not fair. I love you more than he does. [Sniffle.] And he's still gonna win, isn't he.

[tothosewhobait]

[Patiently listens to every word, every sniffle, every petulant little whine....and drops a kiss to the top of Envy's head]

....can I ask you something?

[infinitecruelty]

[Sniffle, whimper.]

Yeah...?

[tothosewhobait]

Will you be my boyfriend?

[infinitecruelty]

[He blinks, more tears falling as he turns his head back to look at him. Is he seriously asking out a worm? But also--]

I thought... I already was? [It's sweet of him to ask more formally, though. And he doesn't know how to deal with that. He tries to shrink smaller, but he can't.] I mean. That's what I told Velvet...

[tothosewhobait]

This isn't a contract. That is....this is me asking you because the only thing I want out of it is you.

[infinitecruelty]

[Oh.

Oohhhh.]

...Oh. Huh. Right.

[He nods a little, slow and uncertain.]

Then... yeah. Yeah, I... want that. [Ough, he's so nauseous. Emotions are such a fucking pain.]

I want to stay with you.

[tothosewhobait]

I want to stay with you too.

...

[Lowers his head and continues hesitantly, looking away for a moment]

For the record....there was no one else. In case you were wondering. I know my words have likely lost a fair bit of their value right now, but I just wanted to let you know.

[infinitecruelty]

Other than... him and me?

[While that does kind of make things easier, he still doesn't like his odds.]

...Okay.

[tothosewhobait]

[Wipes at the corners of Envy's eyes]

I think we need to have a serious talk. I don't want to push you into it right now though... When today has been so much. For both of us.

[infinitecruelty]

[It's so weird to have someone care for him at all, much less when he's this disgusting creature... but Azul has treated him so kindly. He knows he doesn't deserve it. He's an awful beast, a worm, not even a real person.]

...yeah. It's kinda hard to take me seriously when I look like this, huh.

[tothosewhobait]

...?

[Tilts his head slightly in confusion]

Not at all. I think you look rather cute like this actually.

[infinitecruelty]

[Blinks.]

...you don't have to butter me up, you know...

[tothosewhobait]

I'm...not though. I just think you are cute. Even like this.

[infinitecruelty]

[...Impossible.]

...Really? Everyone has always just... called me ugly.

[Hence the obsession with other's beautiful faces.]

[tothosewhobait]

Remember all the things I've told you that people said about me?

[infinitecruelty]

[Glances down and frowns.]

...right, yeah. But. You still looked like you, though. I bet you were still beautiful, too. They were just jealous.

[tothosewhobait]

They were wrong about me. And they are wrong about you. If they want to be wrong about you then that just means more for me.

[infinitecruelty]

[He feels warm about that. It's kind of hard to tell when the lizard is pleased, but he is.]

Good. I'm glad you agree! [Puffs out proudly.]

[Only to deflate a moment later with a whine.]

...I want my body back. I can't do what I want to do, like this. [pout.]

[tothosewhobait]

Hmmm? What is it you wish to do?

[Gathering Envy up and climbing out of bed so he can pad across the room to grab some water without leaving him behind]

[infinitecruelty]

[clings to him like a weird little iguana for the ride.]

W-well. What do you think!! Jeez.

[tsundere intensifies]

[tothosewhobait]

Hmmm....don't know. My boyfriend won't tell me.

[infinitecruelty]

[Hehehe boyfriend.]

Come onnn, I know you know!